trust and honesty.

so as i really look at my life, i noticed a couple of things. my life is really boring, lol. i mean, i know i shouldnt think that my life is really boring, because its not. its just a freaking routine. and i kinda have a messed up thought about routines, they sorta suck, but they are necessary. i understand that.

but back to the real reason why im venting. yoo, so everybody has friends, atleast i hope so. but, i am not one of those persons that has to have soo many friends, im simple. i know alot of people, but i only hang with a handful of them, because of trust and honesty reasons. i base everything i do in life on trust and honesty. but lately, ive had to question the trust and honesty i put towards my friends. and i know i should never have to do that, but things have just been popping up lately with one of my girls. this girl is supposed to be one of my best friends, weve been tight since 6th grade, but as i have actually taken looked at our relationship, it hasnt really grew like my other relationships have. its just been the same, close but not close at all. and what really swtiched our relationship on the downside was when she asked me to lie for her. and it was wanst just a small lie or whatever, this one was kinda big in my terms. but its whatever, maybe im just tripping hard, but lying is something i have learned to not do on a regular basis, because that means that you are normally up to no good / sneaky, and i aint finna have my tail beat because of that.

anyways, basically, what im trying to get to is that honesty and trust is something that is very important in every relationship that you have, from school, emotional, to personal, to whatever. trust and honesty will be able to tell me if you can do something for me. my daddy always said, "if i cant trust you, you cant do nothing for me," basically saying that, you wouldnt be anything of importance to someone if you lost their trust, and thats sooo true.

overall, just know someone to all extents and grooves because some people are just dilly. and dilly people shouldnt be people that you associate yourself with..

ugh, theres soo much more to the story, but i cant bring them to words.
so, this post makes no sense whatsoever.