A real man.

My mentality,

TS3.

Awh, I loved this preview :)

Hated my date though, smh.

Lls.

Kingsley!

Lmao. Clarissa, Jasmine, and I were JUST talking about this.

He's too true.

My highlights.

Chris <3.

Kanye.

Trey Songz.

Sammie :)

Sammie - It's Just A Mixtape.

I'm finally back :)

Girls State was fun. Met some amazing and interesting people.

Learned some new things. Pictures will be up soon.

 Back on my grind soon.

So, after not being in school for a week, I had to come in to take my Bio HL exam which I murkeddddd. Summer '10, where you at?

My summertime anthems!

Travis Porter -  Sunshine On Me.

Anhayla - Single (Female Version.)

Miguel Jontel f. J. Cole - All I Want Is You.

On a lighter note,

My men are playing tonight :)

Time to do my Celtics dance again, lol.

Wiz Khalifa - Up.

Wiz Khalifa - Memorized.

J. Cole - Roc Nation (Mixtape).

M.I.A. - /\/\/\Y/\ (Maya).

 Case - Here, My Love.

  

J. Cole - The Last Stretch.
Trey Songz feat. Amerie - Let's Chill.

Curren$y & Fiend - Flying Iron Terminal.

|vent| I hate boys.

So, I was talking to one of my male friends today who clearly likes me, and he was talking about how he just wanted me to be his girl or whatever, and I basically puked in my mouth. It's not that I don't like him or anything, it's just hard. Maybe it's just me being coldhearted and distant towards letting someone back in my life again, but still. Everything a guy tells me now comes out of my ears as complete and utter bullshit and lies, and I now that's bad and all but I'm not willing to be hurt like I was before. I'm not bitter, just conscious of my heart now. I can't trust any guy that is in my life and that sucksssss because I want to move forward, but as said before, boys are bullshitters and liars. All are the same. I won't go through that again. I'm trying to move forward though, slowly. This kid who broke my heart will NOT get the best of me. Tbh, I'm actually glad he broke my heart. It taught me so much. A story that is so true is below and ehhhh :/


The girl titled it:  "Same Game, New Name."
The white parts are similar to my situation.

"He compliments you. He asks you about your past relationships. You tell him you’ve been damaged so many times and in so many ways. You share a few stories with him and get intro details. He carefully listens to what you have to say and tells you that all those guys are fools for letting a girl like you go. Him being the flirtatious person he is, he tells you that you don’t need them now that you have him. You can’t help it, so you decide to flirt back. You agreed to what he had to say. He then asked for your number and without hesitation you gave it to him right away.

Later that night you receive a phone call. You see his name pop up and you get the biggest smile on your face. You quickly picked up, said hello and he responds with a hey. After a bunch of flirting, laughs and giggles, he suddenly gets tired. You tell him to go to sleep, but he doesn’t want to. Instead, he wants you to fall asleep on the phone with him. You start to smile and agree to it. You two say goodnight to each other and quickly fall asleep.

The next morning you get a text from him. He tells you goodmorning and that he hopes you have a good day. Hours pass by and you can’t help but wonder if he’ll call tonight. And does he? He does. You guys go through the usual hey wassup, how are you, what’d you do today? You expect him to tell you that he misses you next, and does he? He does. Right away you tell him that you miss him too. Later throughout the conversation he slips up and calls you baby. You start cheesing and get these butterflies in your tummy. He then confesses to you that he has a crush on you and that he happens to be interested. You tell him that the feeling’s mutual and that you two are on the exact same page.

Talking to him starts to become part of your daily routine and you two are now considered to be ‘talking.’ You tell your friends about him. How great of guy he is. How sweet he is to you. Practically making him sound like an amazing guy. Little did you know, he’s not so amazing…

He’s not hitting you up anymore, and when he does, its because you hit him up first. Things changed and you can’t help but question where you two stand anymore. He’s not putting in effort, he’s not meeting you half way, he’s not showing that he wants you two to workout anymore… You start to become really clingy because you don’t wanna lose him. You start having negative thoughts and can’t help but wonder if there’s another girl in the picture. He tells you that you need to relax. That everything’s okay. That there’s no other girl and that he still wants you two to workout. He tells you that he’ll try more and that he’s just been busy. You patiently wait to see a change, but do you? No. He’s still acting the same, not trying, not putting in effort and meeting you halfway. Every conversation turns into an argument. You’re hurt and upset every single day and night because of him. You have no clue what went wrong and why he turned into the person he is now. You know that it’d be best for you to let go. Your friends tell you that he’s no good for you and that you should let him go, but do you listen? No. You’re too stuck on the person he used to be that you don’t even bother paying attention to the person he is now. You ask him one last time what he thinks you guys should do. He tells you that he can’t do it anymore. That he just doesn’t feel the same. That he just wants to be single and have fun without anyone holding him back. That right there stabbed you right into your heart.

Not too long after, you see that hes moved on. He has a new girl in his life. He has a new ‘baby’. He has someone new to text throughout the day and fall asleep on the phone with at night.

The guy that you thought was so amazing played you for a fool. Making it look like you were the ‘only one’ when you were really just another person in the line up. Why do you think it didn’t take him too long to move on? He had other options.

You’re hurt while he’s perfectly fine. You’re too sad to go out, and he’s out having fun. You lose sleep and cry ever single night while he falls asleep at ease. He's forgotten about you, while you’re having a hard time letting go…"

Lion King (:

Confessions timeee.

1. "Silence is a girl’s loudest cry." - THIS IS TRUE.

2. "Do you ever wonder what your life looks like through someone else’s eyes?" - CAUSE I THINK YOU LOOK LIKE A DUMBASS.

3. "You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream." - THIS IS TRUE. KEEP DREAMING.

4. "If you can only complain about what you don’t have, you’ll probably won’t realize what you already have." - TAKE HEED.

5. "You don’t know me, don’t act like you do." - PREACH.

@Drizzy,

June 15th.

Had to support my mans.

I'm smelling a million plus in a week?

Got an edited and explicit version (:

Curren$y and J. Cole are next!

There you go.

And people wonder why I'm so cold hearted towards certain people.

Cause I'm through with all of the lies.

"I'm not heartless, just real cold hearted."

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to mi hermano who turned 15 today.

Apparently, I'm grounded?

Hahahahaha, okay whatever. Just because I won't listen to their dumb rules, I'm grounded from my computer until I learn to be less 'disobedient.' If they think this is bad, wait until I raise hell. Lmao. One more week and I'll be goneeeeeee from this household.

Soulja Boy - Dope Boy Swag.

Jae Millz - Green Goblin f. Chris Brown.

 Poor baby :/

Lmao.

1 more day.

Happy Friday :)

Only one more day left of school for me, and I get out early!

Miss you guys!
I'll be back tomorrow <3

Albums.

Eminem - Recovery.
*Link fixed.

Iyaz - Replay.

Travis McCoy - Lazarus.

Plies - Goon Affiliated.

Patacones :)

SAT: BOMBED IT. 

MY CALCULATOR DIDN'T HAVE ENOUGH BATTERIES. FTW.

When I don't answer your text, I'm probably busy or ignoring you.

If it's a guy, I'm ignoring you. STOP TEXTING ME.

Damn. Leave me aloneeeeee.

Goodnight :)

 Brandi & I are in the kitchen, cooking for our Spanish final.

Oh good God, lls.

Next week is my last full week of school. Thank God.

I've never wanted Summer 2010 so bad.

Time for the gym :)

It's Thursday.
Diet is going good.
Two department awards <3
Tomorrow is Friday and I have a date :)


Peaceeee.

So, Thank Me Later leaked today, and I've decided that I'm going to download it and purchase it. I'll post it too. Just buy Drake's album when it comes out too, he's been doing his thing for awhile. I just want J. Cole's cd to come out already..

 Drake - Thank Me Later.

Hollafame - theHolladay2 Mixtape.

Tabi Bonney f. Nando - I Came Up.

I'm going to need help..

Today, I’m starting my diet.

No sodas, no fast food (no fries :/), no sweets. I must work out three to four days a week for atleast an hour and a half. I will only be drinking water, Crystal Light, and milk. I’m trying to limit my carb intake, and if I eat carbs it must be 100% whole wheat/grain. I’m increasing my fiber intake and my vegetable intake, and I have to include fruits. Packed lunch, always. Eh, wish me luck. I’m doing this until I go to Girl’s State which is June 20th. I know this diet is simple, but this is my first diet, that's why it's so big to me.

I just hope my mom holds up for her end of the deal with taking me to the gym, so I won't have to hear anyone's mouth.

Nickelus F - Season Premiere.

Tabi Bonney - A Place Called Stardom.

The Cool Kids - Tacklebox.