This is Nicki Minaj,

“When I am assertive, I’m a bitch. When a man is assertive, he’s a boss. He bossed up. No negative connotation behind ‘bossed up,’ but lots of negative connotation behind being a bitch. Donald Trump can say, ‘You’re fired.’ Martha Stewart runs her company the same way, and people say, ‘Fucking old evil bitch!’ But Donald Trump, he gets to hang out with young bitches and just be cool. When you’re a girl, you have to be dope at what you do but you have to be sweet and you have to be sexy and you have to be this and that. And you have to be nice. I can’t be all those things at once. I’m a human being.”

I agree, Nicki. I agree!

Love Happens.

November 01, 2010.

One month and I'm not tired yet. It's pretty amazing.

James Madison & Hampton are Early Actionedddd.

:) Three scholarships are also completed and in the mail!

God is good.

God is everythinggggg to me.

Taking It Slow..

I hate the fact that people think that I don't like my boyfriend. Just because I don't make him my life, doesn't mean that I don't like him. Denzel is like my rock, in a sense. He keeps me sane and we equal each other out. He's been that guy I've gone to as just a companion for the past 5 to 6 months with NO titles. I wanted to learn about him first. He's always been my friend; someone who I liked to talk to. Within our friendship, feelings were gained and he wanted more. But, I wasn't ready, and he waited patiently. Finally, he asked me to be his girlfriend again, and I said yes. I had to get myself together before I let someone get so close to me again. I don't care what people think of Denzel because it's ridiculous. He treats me with so much respect and love, and that's exactly what I need. Bump all of the nonsense..

Purple Day = SUCCESS!

Purple Day! I just don’t understand why people cannot accept others that may be different from them. This discrimination HAS to stop. It's necessary and childish. You must embrace all :) RIP. God loves you dearly.

Purple Day!

Quotes of the day :)

Just because somebody flirts with you, Doesn’t mean they like you. Just because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they wanna go out with you. Just because they wanna go out with you, Doesn’t mean they love you. Just because somebody loves you, Doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you. Because people lie, things change. partners cheat, and best friends ditch. And there are always gonna be those people who would kill to see you fall.

 

For every person who doesn’t like you, there are twice as many who does. So why should you care about those who don’t? You can never please everybody. If you’re being true to yourself and that isn’t still enough for them whats left for you to do? Nothing. Let them die talking about you.

 

"When you want to succed, as bad as you want to breathe; then you'll be successful."

"Don't go to sleep, until you succeed."

"Pain is temporary. It may last for a minute. It may last for an hour. It may last for a day, or it may even last for a year. But, eventually, it will subside and something else will take it's place. If you quit, it will last forever."

Truth from Tumblr,

It honestly annoys me how guys think our periods "aren’t as big of a deal as we make them out to be."

YOU TRY BLEEDING OUT OF YOUR VAG FOR ABOUT 7 DAYS WHILE DEALING WITH THE FOLLOWING:

• Cramps that make you want to rip out your ovaries.
• Not being able to get comfortable at night no matter how you lay.
• Craving random shit you don’t have.
• Not having the random shit you’re craving.
• Crying for unexplainable reasons.
• Feeling like an impregnated cow with a gut.
• NO SEX, you can, but that’s gross.
• More than likely no oral, ew..redwings.
• feeling like you are being stabbed to death with a fucking machete or samurai sword repeatedly.
• Crying.
• Worry about leaking through whatever you’re wearing
• Ruining cute ass underwear with unforgiving blood spots.
• THINKING you’re done with your period,take out weapon (tampon/pad), 5 minutes later you check, not done, not at all.
• Uncomfortable swimming experiences.
• Annoyance level increases about 1283717463%
• You will yell at people you love.
• Having to piss every 13 minutes.
• Farting like a fucking obese redneck father.
• Wanting to eat everything in sight.
• Craving chocolate so bad you start yelling it like the psycho fish from Spongebob.
• Getting offensive and self conscious over every remark directed toward you.
• Lots of crying.
  
  And of course the descision to shove a wad of cotton up your cooch or basically wear a diaper.
  
                                  Either way, H8 LYFE.

Kingsley!

Lmao. Clarissa, Jasmine, and I were JUST talking about this.

He's too true.

Night time :)

My "And does it look like I care?" face.

Focused on this FB Chat convo.

Thinking. Old flames, smh.

J: yu seem like yu dnt wanna tlk to me

 D: I don't know what to say to you.

J: i understand :/

D: It's okay.

J: no im really tired of bein sooooo stupid wit yu

D: What do you mean?

J: yur a really really good girl for any dude to have by their side and i had you nd i keep lettin you go :(

D: You screwed up. But, it's okay.

J: ik ill deal wit it

D: J, you always say that, but it really doesn't matter right now.

J: ik

D: Yep. I don't hate you or anything.

J: But you should.

Every guy I've ever been with or even talked to has said something like this to me. I guess they don't know my worth until I'm gone. Smh. But, it's like sticky water; cool. (Mrs. Jacques & her weird slang, lol.)

I'm trying?

I don't really know what my relationship with God is, but I try to be a good Christian. Lately, I've been trying to talk to him more often, but I have no idea whether or not he hears or even listens to me, because I never hear a voice back. Sometimes, I wonder if he's not responding to me and my questions because I've been disappointing him recently, but he has to know that he's not the only one disappointed in myself. I have to live with this intense disappointment, it's always going to be in my heart and my mind retains everything that has gone down. I can't forget what I've done, it's going to stay with me, and I think that's the hardest thing ever. I can never go back in time and change things. My mistakes are my mistakes. Never to be done again. And I have to learn and deal with that. Last night, I believe that I had an epiphany. God has put people in my life to show my levels of strength. I've been hurt before, so many times, and that's why I can't trust people easily. My strength comes from the pain that these people that come into my life give me, whether it's their or my fault. I guess he uses this to test how strong I am, to know that I will and always will stand up after a fall, no matter how deep it cuts me. No matter how much I've been hurt and lied to, I will always come up standing. But then God has also put people in my life to be in my corner when the world is on my shoulders and it feels like I've been living in a nightmare. These people support me, love me, are there for me, work with my imperfections and flaws; they know me. I thank God for giving me the strength to stand up and keep going, to make sure that I don't let anything get me down no matter what it is. This was a mistake and now it's time to learn from it.

Memories..

This comic strip reminds me of one day when Marcus came over. It was right after the Winter storm, the one in like January. It was my first time seeing him since he apologized to me for being an asshole. It was freezing outside and there was still snow and ice all over the roads, but I wanted to go outside so we could have privacy. That night, we chilled for about two and a half hours in about 25/30 degree weather and it was the best thing in the world. We did nothing but walk & talk through every neighborhood in River Oaks. It was simple. Nothing big. Just us. We didn't even touch our phones at all, just our hands met each others. Freezing, but content. Me in a semi-warm jacket, and him in a light sweatshirt. He offered to give me his sweatshirt because I was shivering, but I couldn't do that to him. I remember it like it was yesterday. The picture is the way we parted. Standing like that for a good five minutes. I was comfortable, you know? We held each other like that and then he whispered in my ear how sorry he was for treating me wrong, and how we still had to remain friends if anything happened between us. And even now, after our break-up, we talk every once in awhile. Idk, but the cartoon just got to me, because it reminded me of that night. It was one of the most thoughtful and romantic things any guy has ever done for me; just the simplicity and sacrifice. Sitting outside in freezing cold weather, willing to talk, no bars or guards up, trying to fix our relationship. He wasn't worried about what he was going to do afterward, if he was going to go hang out with his friends, but he was worried about me and my feelings. Taking his time with me. Wanting to get things kopesthetic with me. I was the only person on his mind, not his phone or his friends. It was me. That was true. I just wish there were more boys out there willing to do the same thing...

Happy Early Birthday.

My baby turns a year old in two days! (:
It's been a ride, but I'm happy that I kept up with my blog.
Too bad I won't be able to update or post on her birthday,
Cause I'll be in Jamacia.

Back to this homework!
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Awh, crap.

Eh, a lot has to be told. However, I must go get in the shower to go down to Richmond. Prepare for lots and lots of writing and posts. I need must vent. It's becoming too much for me to handle. Even the ones I'm closest with have no idea.

"Lollipops turn into cigarettes & blunts. The innocent ones turn into hoes & sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Cellphones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth & Mum was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? 

And we said we couldn’t wait to grow up…"

I'm hoping that I am a natural beauty..

Where art thou my summetime? Diamond is tired of the cold & actually wearing clothes. Diamond wants for summertime to hurry up, so she can wear less clothes. Diamond hates wearing clothes. It's time for skin to show. Diamond wants to have fun. Diamond feels like giving out alotttt of kisses in the summertime. Diamond loves kisses and hugs too! Diamond just loves summertime, cause summertime means fun, money, & boys :) Diamond is now done talking in 3rd person, lol.

Friday & I'm at home? Wth, cmon sahn.

Glad it's Friday. VCU tomorrow, where ALL the bait at, lls.

Made up with the bum, Brendon. But I'm still lonely.

I miss my teddy bear a lot. Teddy Bear, we need to chill ASAP.

So, tell me why..

I was getting so frustrated at my iTunes because I could not figure out why my new Raheem DeVaughn CD was not playing in order. It took me five minutes to figure out that my iTunes was on shuffle.

Wow, Diamond.

But, yeah. I felt like posting these two pictures to symbolize my breakup with Brendon. I'm done being his bestfriend. Of course I'll miss him, but this is what we both need. We fight all the time and it's so unnecessary, so we are done. He needs to get his act straight & know that he should watch what he says out of his mouth, because it can be really hurtful. & honestly, I don't even really care that we aren't bestfriends anymore, because he was always disrespectful and never was willing to be there for me when I needed him. It was always ALWAYS about him, I'd help him with stuff, but he'd just tell me to call him when I got done with my "permanent PMS." Stfu. So, I don't care. I'm done. The last straw was him calling me out of my name. I deleted his number from my phone, & I might delete him from my Facebook. I can't & won't deal with a selfish bestfriend who thinks that the world revolves around him and who thinks I have no common sense.

Have nice life Brendon.

I'm actually kinda happy this morning,

Good morning :)

Am I Howard-bound? Um, I don't know yet.

But their fineeeeeeeeeee boys are def catching my eye.

It's Sweatshirt Friday in my mind, & I'm eating oatmeal again :)

Now, I must try and start my homework that I haven't dared to look at :/

Guess where I'm going once I get back from school...

RICHMOND! Yessssssssss :D

I'm beyond jealous.

I want this. Why can't I have this? Fun, true love. It makes me so sick to sit here and post this, because my tail is actually really really jealous of how happy they are. Maybe because Valentine's Day is coming up and I don't even have a valentine, nor was I asked, I don't know. Hmm, yeah so I am jealous because Valentine's Day is coming, and then I'm also jealous because I'm seventeen, but yet I feel like an infant in the love department. Haha, all I want is a guy to buy me some flowers, a small teddy bear, and possibly take me out on a real date. Is that so hard to ask, lol? I guess, my daddy will be my Valentine again until someone asks me, which will probably never happen, :/ Damn. So, yeah. I'm JEALOUS. Really jealous. I hate love cause I've never been in it, and I hate them because they have it.

But the photographs are simply beautiful, &I really like her flickr: BunnyJenny.

Friday night!

Brendon and I's late night talks and texting sessions :)

"Damn life is funny sometimes because people always tell you to go off your first instincts and I learned that no matter what others say or do if you trust in what you believe than that is all that matters.....the truth comes out sometimes no matter how long it takes."

- Haki Dennis, my cousin.

My right foot is broken in my eyes. It's swollen and it hurts so bad that I can barely walk on it :/ It's wrapped and compressed but it's barely working. I hate my best friend. He's not fucking helping me with my shit that's running through my mind. My babe is cool :) He makes me smile soo much. I need to go shopping with Kirstin, so we can look fresh. Silvia and I are going to California for the entire summer :) SO EXCITED. I'm giving blood this Saturday, and my family wants to adopt a Haitian child :)