Taking It Slow..

I hate the fact that people think that I don't like my boyfriend. Just because I don't make him my life, doesn't mean that I don't like him. Denzel is like my rock, in a sense. He keeps me sane and we equal each other out. He's been that guy I've gone to as just a companion for the past 5 to 6 months with NO titles. I wanted to learn about him first. He's always been my friend; someone who I liked to talk to. Within our friendship, feelings were gained and he wanted more. But, I wasn't ready, and he waited patiently. Finally, he asked me to be his girlfriend again, and I said yes. I had to get myself together before I let someone get so close to me again. I don't care what people think of Denzel because it's ridiculous. He treats me with so much respect and love, and that's exactly what I need. Bump all of the nonsense..

Day 30: Who are you?

Finally done :)
It's simple. I am a child of the most high God who is perfect with flaws. I am half of my mother, half of my father. I am loved. I am selfless. I am a lover. I am a fighter for things I love. I am beautiful amongst the ugly. I am a teenager who is unlike others. I am naive. I am wise. I am a learner. I am an observer. I am me.

Day 29: In this past month, what have you learned

September 04, 2010
During this month, I must say that I've learned a lot. I've learned when and how to let my guard down to people. I learned that somethings I do in public, should be done in private. I've learned that God always has my back no matter how far I stray away from him. I've learned that radio music sucks, so I listen to my local artists and will support them for the longest. I've learned that letting go may be a good thing. I've learned over again that I cannot trust everyone. I've learned to give my all to the ones that truly care about me. I've learned that laughing in tough situations breaks the ice. I've learned to take responsibility for my own mistakes. I've learned that sometimes people will never understand my mind. I've learned to take life by it's horns and run with it. I've learned to love, and never hate. I've learned how to be there for my friends more. I've learned that everyone may not take heed to my advice, but they are always listening, and know that they can come to me. I've learned to try and not disappoint my parents anymore. I've learned that God is my life. I've learned to keep smiling, and look on the bright side. I've learned never to regret, but to take everything in life as a lesson learned.. I've learned, and I will continue to learn..

Day 28: A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

September 03, 2010
Back on track..

August 2009.

August 2010.

Okay, sorry for the low quality pictures, but yeahhhh. Not based on physical features that have changed, I must say that I've grown up a lot. I'm not as naive and I'm branching out of my comfort zone. I've learned how to speak out more vocally about things that I do not approve of.. I'm more comfortable with myself and I'm learning so much from the world..

Day 27: Why are you doing this 30 day challenge,

September 02, 2010
I started this 30 day challenge because I needed something to keep me focused during the last month of summer. I needed another way to release certain feelings, and yeahhhhh. I just needed something to do :)

Day 26: What you think about your friends,

September 1, 2010
I love my friends. My friends balance me out and they are always there for me. All of my friends are different from one another in some way, and I find myself learning from them every single day. Once again, I LOVE MY FRIENDS, even if I'm mean to you :)

Day 25: What I would find in your bag,

August 31, 2010
Normally, I would take a photo, but I'm too lazy.
1. Lip gloss/capstick.
2. Comb.
3. Wallet/ID.
4. Jewelry/earrings.
5. Blackberry.
6. Mints/candy.
7. Pen.
8. Girly items.
9. Lotion.

Day 24: A letter to your parents,

August 30, 2010
Dear Mommy and Daddy,
I know I may not be the best daughter in the world, and I may not listen to you guys all the time, but know that I love you with all of my heart. I thank God everyday because I wouldn't be here without yall. I have no idea how you put up with me and my rebel mood swings, but I'm glad that you have enough love for me to correct me when I'm wrong. Sometimes, I think that you guys think that I just do some things because I'm dumb, but I do it because I need experience and  I need to live life. Believe me, don't worry about me. I know right from wrong, and whether or not I do the right thing is something I will have to take up with God. I hate seeing me disappoint you guys, and I'm trying to make sure that I don't do that anymore. I take heed to everything you guys say to me, whether it's wisdom or just conversation.. I know who I am, I'm just straightening myself out right now. I will make more bad choices, but I know that my good choices will outweigh that. This is hard for me to write.. Just know that I am blessed for the amazing parents you have been to my brother and I. I love you deeply, and you impact my life in words I cannot explain. God must've knew what he was doing when he gave me to you. God is love. Love is you. You is me. Thank-you for all that you do for us. You guys are truly my role models as you amaze me every single day..

Love, Babygirl.

Day 23: Something you crave for a lot,

August 29, 2010

Day 22: What makes you different from everyone else,

August 28, 2010
Mm, this is a difficult question.. I don't even know how to answer this.. I try my hardest to show people that I care about them, even the ones that don't deserve my love. I have a big heart and I'm not afraid to show it. People consider me quiet, but others consider me to be loud with reason. I think a lot, and even if I still do things that are wrong, I have experience. I have a motherly nature to me, but I'm really blunt. Sometimes I can't hold my tongue.. I get that from my dad. Ummm, yeah Idk. I'm answering this question wrong, so I'm going to stop :)

Day 21: A picture of something that makes you happy,

August 28, 2010

Music/Creativity.

Books.

 Food.

Day 20: Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future,

August 27, 2010 BACK ON TRACK :)

Not counting celebrities, I really don't know who I could see myself marrying or being with in the future.. I have a couple of guys in mind, but we'll see how that goes.. When I date or even talk to people, I date/talk to marry. Like, the saying "Date smart, marry smart." Yeah, that's me. I've dated my array of men, but I've always found a heart in every guy. Sooo, I guess you can say I could marry any guy I've been with, and I can say that I'm truly happy with that :) I love every guy I've been with/talked to.

Day 19: Nicknames you have; why do you have them,

August 26, 2010
Nicknames: Darling, Di, Shabazz, DC, Babygirl, PC, Dominique..

Darling: My grandfather calls me this, has always called me that.
Di: Most of my friends call me this, shortened for Diamond.
Shabazz: My middle name. My mommy is the only one that calls me that.
DC: Shanice calls me this. Stands for Diamond Cooper.. Back in Freshman year, my teacher thought my name was Shanice's last name and wrote it on "Diamond Cooper" on a pass for the bathroom, and Niecy thought it was funny, so she's called me DC since then.
Babygirl: Umm, yeah. Idk why but a lot of ppl call me this.
PC: Tachee calls me this and it's shortened for "Playa's Club," because she thinks I'm a playa and that I look like the girl from Playa's Club..
Dominique: Umm, Dino calls me this. He thought my name was Dominique, lol, and when I corrected him he was surprised.. He's called me this since I was in middle school.. SMH.

Day 18: Plans/dreams/goals you have,

August 25, 2010
1. To graduate high school/college.
2. Intern/get a well paying job.
3. Get married.
4. Have/adopt kids :)
5. Give back to my commuinty.
6. Buy an Audi A4 for meeeeee.
7. Buy my parents a house.
8. Grow my hair out.
9. Tattedddd.
10. Lose weight.
11. Have fun.
12. Be happy :)

Day 17: Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why,

August 24, 2010

I would want to switch lives with all three of them for one day, and for different reasons.. Umm, I would love to switch lives with Michelle because her fashion taste is AMAZING, and I would be putting everybody in check, and telling people to leave my husband alone and let him do his job. I would love to switch lives with Mr. President and just tell everyone to shutup and let me do my dxmn job. I would love to switch lives with Oprah because she's just one of my role models..

Day 16: Another picture of yourself,

August 23, 2010

Homecoming night.

Freshman, Sophomore, and Junior Princess.

Senior Queen/Princess, maybe?

July 30, 2010

Wale concert.

Day 15: Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play,

August 22, 2010
I have no idea where I threw that iPod, so this is from my iTunes..
1. Lil' Wayne - I Feel Like Dying.
2. Wiz Khalifa - Everytime (Freestyle).
3. Raheem DeVaughn - Dr. Cornell West PSA.
4. Enrique Iglesias - Ayer.
5. Wiz Khalifa - Dope Boys (Freestyle).
6. X.O. - Blah Blah.
7. JoJo - Fly Away.
8. J. Cole - Ignorant Shit (Freestyle).
9. Chris Brown - I Need This.
10. Taylor Swift - White Horse.
*I'm really surprised John Mayer or Nando didn't come up..

Day 14: A picture of you and your family

August 21, 2010

June 2009.

Family vacation.

Outdated: My brother is now 6'2, lls.

Day 13: A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

August 20, 2010
Dear, You Know Who You Are
You never kept to your word. You disrespected me and degraded me like no other. Your words and actions can transcend from loving to hatred. You were my backbone, my bestfriend, my counselor, my lover; my everything. However, everything changed so quickly. Now, you are nothing to me. No pain has crossed my mind or heart since you told me I was worthless as a woman and had no purpose in life, because I know what you said to me that day was incorrect on all accounts. Little to no tears have dripped from my eyelids since that day regarding you, because I will rise against all of your assumptions about MY life. As I take a deep look back on our relationship, you knew nothing about me. You never understood my pain or what I've been through in life, because you were always never completely there for me. I may have invited you into my life unlike my other friends, but you never took advantage of knowing me in my entirety, because you were always worried about yourself. You had no right on God's green Earth to tell me some of the things you told me on that day.. And to make it public, for everyone to see.. Thinking about our relationship makes me cringe because you were the only one I trusted with always being there for me and loved, but now we have nothing. But in all understanding, I have no grudge against you. I hope God blesses you with an amazing life, and I hope that you achieve your dream(s). Just know that you have no control over me, and your hateful words rolled over my back, and had no meaning. I wouldn't allow you profess such things over my life. No amount of apologies or regrets will ever allow me to have you back in my life. I will not allow someone to enter my life again because of such words spoken over me.. I don't regret knowing you, but I do fault myself for falling deep in love with someone who treated me like you did.. You never were consistent with your feelings and words. Fighting all the time with little to none makeups. I was never important to you. I was never your priority. I was never someone you truly loved. I was just there, while I was someone who understood you, but never got anything in return. This chapter is now closed in my book, and it will never be opened again. All is fair in love and war.

Sincerely,
Diamond

Day 12: How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one,

August 19, 2010
Uhh, I found about both Blogger and Tumblr through my friend, Abby. I made one because I needed to pick up a hobby and this seemed easy. I've kept up with both because it helps me relax and speak my mind when I can't. I use my Blogger for more text and music, than my Tumblr that holds a lot of pictures..

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