I figured it out.

I think I know what's wrong with me. Not really, but I kinda have an idea. I'm not relaxed at all. A lot of stuff is going on and I don't know who I can really turn to so I can get some stuff off my chest. My friend says I need to go smoke, and I thought I'd never say this, but maybe she's right? No, Idk. Idk. Idk. I wish I could go talk to Mike, he always gives good advice and is kinda sometimes patient with me. Or maybe it's just time for me to go to Richmond, Savannah always makes me laugh. Goodnight, Imma go listen to John Mayer & get ready to wish at 11:11.